What happens when the faith you grew up with no longer fits the person you’re becoming? In this Divine Disruptors conversation, Amanda Moss shares her powerful journey of healing, deconstruction, and rediscovering spirituality on her own terms. From high-control religion to reclaiming feminine energy and building a sacred community, Amanda’s story is an inspiring reminder that your connection with God (or your divine power) is deeply personal and it’s never lost.
Amanda grew up Lutheran, with fond memories of church potlucks and community life. But as she entered adulthood, she began noticing shifts in church culture with more rules, more judgment, and less of the grace she remembered as a child.
In her 20s, Amanda became part of a high-control faith community that was “subtly manipulative,” as she describes it. She spent eight years trying to live up to the expectations of being “the good Christian woman.” But the constant people-pleasing and self-abandonment left her numb.
“I disassociated from my life,” Amanda admits. “There are pockets of my twenties I can barely remember.”
When 2020 brought the world to a halt, Amanda found herself with the time and space to ask big questions: What do I really believe? What’s authentic to me? And what’s just programming I’ve carried for years?
This was the beginning of her deconstruction journey. It wasn’t easy or pretty. “The first emotion I accessed fully was rage,” Amanda shares. “And it was holy. Anger is a powerful motivator for change.”
For two years, Amanda worked through layers of belief systems, grief, and self-discovery. Slowly, she began rebuilding a faith that felt alive and deeply aligned with who she really is.
A big part of Amanda’s healing came from embracing her feminine energy.
“Women aren’t linear, we’re cyclical,” she explains. “But faith and culture taught me to hustle like a man.”
By honoring her natural rhythms and cycles, Amanda began structuring her life and spiritual practices differently. She leaned into rest, intuition, and flow instead of constant striving.
This return to feminine essence wasn’t just physical, it was also spiritual. Amanda believes reclaiming the divine feminine is key to healing both individually and collectively.
Amanda also began exploring astrology, not as a replacement for God, but as a tool for self-understanding.
“I look at astrology as God’s cosmic blueprint for us,” she says. “It’s a lens to see how we’re wired and how we can align more fully with our authentic selves.”
She’s quick to clarify that astrology isn’t prescriptive and it’s not about predestined outcomes. Instead, it’s a way to observe patterns, honor your energy, and reduce overwhelm in a world that often demands constant output.
As Amanda’s faith journey evolved, so did her understanding of community. She realized that even without organized religion, women deeply crave spaces to gather, share, and support one another.
This inspired her to create Cosmic Sip—a community centered around approachable wine education, soulful conversations, and feminine connection.
“Community heals what isolation breaks,” Amanda says. “We were never meant to do life alone.”
Amanda now experiences prayer and divine connection as a living, ongoing discussion rather than a structured practice.
“God speaks to us in so many ways, through intuition, through others, through nature,” she says. “It’s less about the rules and more about relationship.”
She also finds comfort in signs from the spiritual world (like cardinals reminding her of her grandmother) and in ancestral healing that helps her understand her family and herself with more compassion.
Amanda’s encouragement to women at the start of their deconstruction or spiritual awakening is simple but profound:
“Follow the questions. Your journey is sacred. And it will lead you to a faith and connection that feels authentic to you.”
You can connect with Amanda on Instagram @amanda_moss or join her Cosmic Sip gatherings to explore alignment, community, and your own divine blueprint.
Faith doesn’t have to fit a box. It doesn’t have to look like it used to. Amanda’s story reminds us that God meets us wherever we are, in our doubts, our anger, our silence, and our becoming.
Whether you’re deconstructing, rebuilding, or redefining your faith, remember: You’re not behind. You’re being aligned.
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